I had started feeling horrible one day, while sitting at my desk at work. Bam, out of nowhere I was dizzy, a bit confused, shaking and just an overall feeling of "ick". I hadn't eaten anything that day so far, so I automatically thought "my blood sugar must be low". So I ran back to my mom's office and had her check my blood sugar. (she's diabetic, so she has those kinds of resources available). The meter read a whopping 38. Uh.. not good. No wonder I felt crappy. So, I proceeded to eat something in hopes of it making me feel better. Not so much. I still felt awful. Off to the ER I went. They checked my blood, ran some blood tests, gave me some fluids via IV and sent me on my way, once I was feeling a bit better. I was to follow up with my regular doc in the next few days and get my results. Easier said than done. My doc didn't have any appointments available for 3 weeks. No problem, I thought. Until I tried to eat anything, then that feeling would come on again...tired, weak, dizzy, etc...( I won't bore you with the details, but I hardly ate and mostly just drank those 3 weeks, just so I wouldn't feel awful).
I was finally able to see my doc earlier this week and he said I was insulin resistant. My pancreas makes way too much insulin to try and keep my blood sugars normal. I am not diabetic.. yet. I will be if I don't do anything about it now. So I left the doc's office with a prescription for Metformin and a new mindset. I had wanted to start this weight loss journey to look and feel good. Now it was about being healthy. Luckily, the Metformin will control my insulin production, but also assists with weight loss. Score for me! I needed that extra boost to get me going. As a person with PCOS, it is not as easy as one thinks to lose weight. I have stayed (plus or minus a few lbs) at the same weight for almost 2yrs now. I won't go into detail about PCOS, just know it sucks. Big time. I hate it. I wish it never existed. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.
Any who.. I had already had a little unintentional weight loss because of not eating much for those 3 weeks, but when I weighed in at home a week ago I was at 221. Since the doc visit I have been eating healthy and tracking my every food intake, as well as taking my Metformin. I am happy to report, after weighing in this evening (on the same scale as last week) that I am at 215! May not seem like a lot, but it is something! I haven't even been exersizing! (yet). I have cut all soda, sweets, breads, fried & fast food and have stuck to my new eating habits. I am so happy to report I am NOT starving, as I thought I would be. I have learned to stop eating when I am full and opt for healthier options if I go out.
For example: today, while out and about running errands, we decided to eat lunch out. We decided on Subway. (my choice). I opted for a ham sandwich on wheat, no cheese, lettuce, tomato, onion, pickles, bell pepper & cucumber. No mayo, just vinegar. To tell you the truth, I shocked myself at how good it was. Who says you need fat and carbs to be satisfied?! (I also had low cal, low sugar Lemonade). I hadn't planned on eating dinner out, but Hubby went fishing overnight with my brother and a friend, my niece Ophelia went to have a sleepover at Grandma's and my sister and her Hubby took Adalyn to PoJo's (gamecenter).. So that left just Liz and I at home. Our first thought was "Hell yeah, girls night!!! Drinks, bars, dance clubs..".. Ha! Right. I am entirely too old and too fat to be doing all of that. We opted for dinner and house hunting. (her and my brother are getting ready to buy a home). So off we went. I chose a favorite place of mine and hubby's.. Magic Recipe. Mmm. Delish. I wanted to PIG OUT, as their food is SO damn good. BUT, I didn't. I was good. I chose grilled pork steak with mashed red potatoes (hold the gravy), salad with Italian and grilled veggies..with water to drink. I didn't even finish the entire meal, but it was so delicious. I was totally satisfied and according to my 'Lose It' app on my phone, the whole meal was under 500 calories! Makes this fat girl wanna do a little dance!!! ( I didn't by the way.. no one wants to see all that).
I know I sound way too excited about food and getting healthy, but if you really know me, you know I love my food. Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine eating healthy wouldn't kill me. I mean really.. as a certified 'fat kid', I would have never thought life could be lived without sugar and fatty foods. This last week has been a total shock and surprise to me.. but a good one.
I don't think of it as a diet.. it's really a lifestyle change. I have to do it.. I am too scared of the outcome if I don't. I thought I would be miserable having to do it, but I must say.. It's really not bad! This is totally something I can stick to. If only they had a disease you would get if you didn't blog everyday.. then maybe I could stick to it :) I try, I really do. And I'll try harder. If you read a few posts back, you'll see why I have a hard time blogging. But I am getting better.
I will be continuing what I started in February, posting pictures and measurements.. I will get some up tomorrow. I will stick with the beginning photos I already have posted, because well, I was only 2lbs heavier when I started last week.
Stay tuned, my friends! Tata for now.. as it is late and my brain is a little fuzzy. Excuse any spelling or grammar errors.. or if it just doesn't make sense at all... I don't function well when I am tired.
G'nite loves!
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